For those of you that have read our post; I just wanted to update you on how everything that has gone on. It’s taken me a bit of time to get the courage to come back here to this website, not because I’m scared, but because my husband and I are deeply sadden with how everything that happened….
We lost our Axel bear Monday November 14th at 6:10pm, oh so suddenly and unexpectedly. As you may know Axel was diagnosed with STS (soft tissue sarcoma, nerve sheath) on October 27th.
On the initial consultation with our regular vet, she had educated on several ways she can take care of this mass on October 22nd, when she did a fine needle aspiration she noticed the tumor was very bloody, at that point we could sense the hesitation that she had, but with her knowledge and education we thought she knew that best route to go. With that being said, she suggested that we do a core biopsy to send the samples in to really determine what type of cancer it was since it was not a fatty tumor. She had stated that in 10-14 days come back and get the sutures removed, when my husband and I heard that we presumed it would heal and that would give us enough time to figure out what to do next.
Fast forward to October 29th, the tumor dehisce (path of least of resistance) while we were at work and when I came home my poor Axel bear was bleeding and the tumor stuck out about 1/2″ so my husband and I drove back down to ER vet and had him re-sutured up, we express a lot of frustration on why this is happening, and what that particular location. He actually was wondering the same thing. Axel went home that night very groggy and now wrapped. With antibiotics, and more Rimadyl.
We went in for our suture removal Nov 4th, and when I told the vet tech not to take the middle suture out she was not sure what to do so she called our vet in. When she checked Axel out, she said they are not ready to come out yet, and that tumors sometimes take more than 10-14 days to heal or they may not heal….when I heard that my heart sank, and I was seeing red all at the same time!!! I wanted to swear and yell at her, but my poor boy was stressed out enough, so we went home. And the kicker…they wanted to charge me for another consultation fee!!! What in the world!!!!!
So following about 6 days later Nov 10th, Axel’s tumor dehisce’d again!!! This time the bleeding was more, and about 1″- 1″ 1/2″ from that middle location. I had called and made an appointment for Axel to see the oncologist that Friday the 11th, and this happens! Our boy sure couldn’t catch a break….
At the oncology consult, she pretty much stated that she could not believe that the vet that referred us to her neglected to tell us everything,….
*****there’s more to be said…..to be continued.
***I’m just crying, and angry and it’s hard to type
I am so sorry for Axel’s passing, and it sounds horrible that you were not able to find someone who could provide the quality of care he needed. We are grieving (and angry and sad) with you.
My heart is breaking to read this -I am in shock and I cannot imagine the depth of the shock and grief you must be feeling and how keenly you must be missing your gorgeous Axel.
I know first hand how important it is to feel heard and validated when you are disappointed and let down by the professionals you trusted. Please know we are here to listen and cry and even rage with you.
Lisa and Angel Pofi
Oh noooo! I’m so sorry your sweet Axel is gone. I wish we could help ease the pain, it must be an awful shock, especially under those circumstances.
Writing can be very therapeutic though, so by all means, continue and we will be here for you now and always.
May Axel’s spirit wrap love around your heart as you mourn his transition out of his earthly form. In time, you will feel his presence stronger than ever, but for now, it’s OK to feel everything you do. We totally get it.
Was not expecting this at all! Shocked and stunned…and so very, very, very sorry! I’m just shaking my head in disbelief.
This just breaks my heart for you and with you. Yes, we are all crying with you. I’m just so sorry.
Every loss guts us. But a loss like this…no words.
PLEASE know that you did EVERYTHING POSSIBLE for Axel and he KNOWS it!! Our capabilities can only carry us so far. Sometimes it just seems as though the script is already written .
It did take so much courage to get through this post. I knkw yiu were crying the whole time. But pkease stay connected and let us suplort you through this devastatingly tough time. Axel woukd want us to help you. Axel would want you to share some of the happy times with us…your family.
As hard as these last several days have been, they are just a blink of an eye compared to the thousands and thousands of nappy memories yoh and Axel shared! Because of you, Axel knew what love and joy felt like.
Axel WILL send you some signs,some messages that he’s still with you. Pay attention.
Surrounding you with love and Axel’s etrrnal grace! His life mattered to us!!
Sally and My Chunky Spiritual Being Happy Hannah and Merry Myrtle and Frankie